The last day of 2009!

I have been missing for quite some time due to work n work n unnecessary stress! Well, hope things will be good ahead! Indeed Christmas was good! Received surprise n funny surprises! HW took effort to change things… and I hope things will turn to better ones.

Sis came back not almost a month ady and I only spent very minimal time with her and my family due to work AGAIN! But I did manage to bring family for a good dinner which I told myself I must do it every month! My sis will be going back to spore again…. So I need to talk to the wall again! It’s just so different when there is additional ppl in the house…. I wish I could have an older sister too! At least, I have fewer burdens!

There is much to think when it comes to yr end! And I have this habit of reading my astrology end of the yr and see what these Master have to say about 2010 life and wealth!
So next yr… everything so so only. Special reminder about my financial AGAIN!! I even have a wish list and dreaming of getting a new car…. My dream car….. well, jst wait and see… see if I could save then buy it!

So folks, happie new year… all de best and best wishes to 2010!! Cheers!

all lies...

just when I thought that God is great n he showed me a brighter way when I fell.... actually it is just another test. A test I m fed up to move and accept and I rather giving up coz it's really hurting.....

Hie to my own wall.... I've not been updating any news bout myself. I was busy with the weddings and my new job. Some r great and some isn't that fun. New job so far so good, and I have tough time to cope everything at once since I was malfunction for a year.... so, I need to add oil to pick up myself n be on par in the industry I am working now.

October was a disastrous month,however it actually can be prevented if I want to, but I chose to proceed. Many times, even when I was in a relationship... ppl commented I am too nice/kind to others and these ppl tend to take me for granted and at the end there is no appreciation. What took me to write this out here is because during the month of Oct, many incident happened and at the end of the day, I asked myself... do I feel happy? the answer, NO! WHY... coz I was not appreciated. I don't expect anything in return but at least....at least, put some effort to show some appreciation. It is not about the success or failure of the outcome but it is more of effort that counts! Again, frens asked "after all u have done and sacrificed, do they sincerely thank u and appreciate u?" I kept quiet for a while coz I don't know the answer too... honestly, I don't feel it. My kindness became gossips, and the mistakes became humiliating. There was no space or second chance for improvement... but critics. So, I guess I am putting a full stop and learn to say NO (which I always fail to do so)


It's "early Christmas gift"
I always thought that there will be no miracle happen from HW, there goes my 1st surprise from him. It was totally an unexpected gift coz we had few communication breakdown earlier. I don't know how to share tis piece of love with the rest coz its bout me and him only... no one else would understand and feel it! Hmmmmm and I really do look forward for a good christmas!

Mr & Mrs Lau's Wedding

Finally it has all come to an end.... my task is done and I am free! Yeah, D & C's wedding! It took few months in process to think and figure out the whole gimmick, I would it is not easy when I came out the idea and getting other people to do it. The overall rating for the nite event would be 75% success only. I am proud to say that it was a good one but of course I can't ignore those weaknesses behind. Some people criticized and some complimented us (me and sean). Well, the mistake we did was the very details of the CHINESE PANTANG stuffs! But I have to say that I can't favor everyone there, most important is our groom and bride are fine with the outcome. One example is the gimmick we did and I used a blue scarf (matches my navy blue cheongsam)and ppl said that the colour is or funeral. So, it was a lesson to learn. lol! well, now I noted the weaknesses and I will improve from there. I starting to like this job! hopefully more to come.... lol!! I need to thank my partner in crime sean to make this wedding reception a success also.

You know what, I do realized that men always will be more outstanding than women in emcee career.... and my target is to be one of the women to success in this path. :P

It has been few weeks since the robbery incident, honestly I can't lie that I am still traumatized with the incident. Some frens asked how is he so dumb to show where he actually stays... come to think about it, I guess I can't even promise that I wont do the same thing like him. No one to blame but things are just so unlucky... and what surprised me now is his brother (the victim) is shifting himself to stay at hostel. He did not inform my family member at all, I found out when I saw a car parked at my house. I asked him if that is his fren and he opened the door and said... yeah, coz I am shifting out. I felt sad... coz I feel it is more because of this incident and his brother forced him to stay hostel. He told us that his brother did proposed he want to move out and his brother could stay, but at last the younger brother decided to move out. Hmmmm... I really pity for this guy. He is a quiet and obedient guy. Very straight forward and honest... u ask him few times ... he will tell everything... sigh! wish him all the best...

No more smiles

Ever since the robbery, I never sleep well, eat well and really smile. I always look tension n worried. Every night before I sleep I will do repeated action until I feel ok. I know this is not good and this is not healthy but I can't help it. My parents seems ok, because they don't get to hear many stories like I did. Like my mom, she still ride a bike to many places and this week she got to take care of her bosses' house!! She will never understand how dangerous it is and her life is NOT INSURED if anything happen!!! I advise, I told she never listen. She keeps thinkin of no problem! She never know how crazy an idiot thief could be when they r on drugs! Everything is in my head.... No one to share my worries!

My dad has got listening problem.... so he will not be sensitive with surroundings.and for that I do worry bout him too! Worries he might forget to lock the door, forget to switch off electricity....I don't know how long I could bear such worries. I thought my sister would at least come home and visit my parents. Just bcoz the heels is not at home, she chose not to come back. She never know that mom was blessed by GOD that she is still alive... coz without God's protection I guess she would have no choice to come back either visiting my mom at hospital or unwanted scene....

It has been more than a week since the robbery case, and I am still in worries. Worried doors are not lock, worrying all sorts of unpredictable misfortune agenda! I am so tired but I can't let go this feelings coz it's haunting me without fail... every night!It really kills me.... Imagine I am a bridesmaid for A's wedding and I have one 5cents acne on my face! It's so awful.... everytime when there is any big event, my face will grow acne!sigh~ I don't feel good.... everything! anything....

But then, after staying in A's house for a nite, I feel much better, in fact, they did not lock any doors yet everyone sleep soundly including me (except that the bed is too small for 2 gurls) I've seen many things in a day and I tell myself, only GOD can take my life... not these robbers or any inhumanity criminals. I read in Bible, GOD taught ppl to forgive... and I am learning not to remember it.... hopefully time really helps me to lessen this feelings