I have very bad mood today.... emo!
Had an argument with HW and that's it... I called off... everything! n he nvr call back... I suddenly think of some guys who have pampered me to the max! THEY knew I will use my car to release my anger o distress. and they worry it will end up as tragedy... n for HW, he nvr bother to call or sms. He jst let it b... this really makes me feel that he is not caring at all, n what happen if v decide to move on further relationship? I have doubts.... I am very upset that he do not know why I care n concern every single bits. I have enough man betraying me in life... n I really do not wish for a repeat history. How to live with a guy that do not share things in life with you.... n only clarify when shitty things ady happened. what for?
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Sunday, January 3, 2010
I was supposed to receive a special gift - a camera. But then it all went disappointed due to some expression given by me. I was actually touched and happy but maybe I was having gastric and alot of to-do-stuff in my mind... the reaction was calm~
Sometimes, I wish he could ask if I really want it before making decision and at the end when I ask.... the answer was... "I decided to use it myself.... bcoz I tot u weren't happy with it...." and of course with the intention to get what I like.... IN FUTURE.... SOb! sob!
Sometimes, I wish he could ask if I really want it before making decision and at the end when I ask.... the answer was... "I decided to use it myself.... bcoz I tot u weren't happy with it...." and of course with the intention to get what I like.... IN FUTURE.... SOb! sob!
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
The last day of 2009!
I have been missing for quite some time due to work n work n unnecessary stress! Well, hope things will be good ahead! Indeed Christmas was good! Received surprise n funny surprises! HW took effort to change things… and I hope things will turn to better ones.
Sis came back not almost a month ady and I only spent very minimal time with her and my family due to work AGAIN! But I did manage to bring family for a good dinner which I told myself I must do it every month! My sis will be going back to spore again…. So I need to talk to the wall again! It’s just so different when there is additional ppl in the house…. I wish I could have an older sister too! At least, I have fewer burdens!
There is much to think when it comes to yr end! And I have this habit of reading my astrology end of the yr and see what these Master have to say about 2010 life and wealth!
So next yr… everything so so only. Special reminder about my financial AGAIN!! I even have a wish list and dreaming of getting a new car…. My dream car….. well, jst wait and see… see if I could save then buy it!
So folks, happie new year… all de best and best wishes to 2010!! Cheers!
I have been missing for quite some time due to work n work n unnecessary stress! Well, hope things will be good ahead! Indeed Christmas was good! Received surprise n funny surprises! HW took effort to change things… and I hope things will turn to better ones.
Sis came back not almost a month ady and I only spent very minimal time with her and my family due to work AGAIN! But I did manage to bring family for a good dinner which I told myself I must do it every month! My sis will be going back to spore again…. So I need to talk to the wall again! It’s just so different when there is additional ppl in the house…. I wish I could have an older sister too! At least, I have fewer burdens!
There is much to think when it comes to yr end! And I have this habit of reading my astrology end of the yr and see what these Master have to say about 2010 life and wealth!
So next yr… everything so so only. Special reminder about my financial AGAIN!! I even have a wish list and dreaming of getting a new car…. My dream car….. well, jst wait and see… see if I could save then buy it!
So folks, happie new year… all de best and best wishes to 2010!! Cheers!
Monday, December 21, 2009
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Hie to my own wall.... I've not been updating any news bout myself. I was busy with the weddings and my new job. Some r great and some isn't that fun. New job so far so good, and I have tough time to cope everything at once since I was malfunction for a year.... so, I need to add oil to pick up myself n be on par in the industry I am working now.
October was a disastrous month,however it actually can be prevented if I want to, but I chose to proceed. Many times, even when I was in a relationship... ppl commented I am too nice/kind to others and these ppl tend to take me for granted and at the end there is no appreciation. What took me to write this out here is because during the month of Oct, many incident happened and at the end of the day, I asked myself... do I feel happy? the answer, NO! WHY... coz I was not appreciated. I don't expect anything in return but at least....at least, put some effort to show some appreciation. It is not about the success or failure of the outcome but it is more of effort that counts! Again, frens asked "after all u have done and sacrificed, do they sincerely thank u and appreciate u?" I kept quiet for a while coz I don't know the answer too... honestly, I don't feel it. My kindness became gossips, and the mistakes became humiliating. There was no space or second chance for improvement... but critics. So, I guess I am putting a full stop and learn to say NO (which I always fail to do so)
It's "early Christmas gift"
I always thought that there will be no miracle happen from HW, there goes my 1st surprise from him. It was totally an unexpected gift coz we had few communication breakdown earlier. I don't know how to share tis piece of love with the rest coz its bout me and him only... no one else would understand and feel it! Hmmmmm and I really do look forward for a good christmas!
October was a disastrous month,however it actually can be prevented if I want to, but I chose to proceed. Many times, even when I was in a relationship... ppl commented I am too nice/kind to others and these ppl tend to take me for granted and at the end there is no appreciation. What took me to write this out here is because during the month of Oct, many incident happened and at the end of the day, I asked myself... do I feel happy? the answer, NO! WHY... coz I was not appreciated. I don't expect anything in return but at least....at least, put some effort to show some appreciation. It is not about the success or failure of the outcome but it is more of effort that counts! Again, frens asked "after all u have done and sacrificed, do they sincerely thank u and appreciate u?" I kept quiet for a while coz I don't know the answer too... honestly, I don't feel it. My kindness became gossips, and the mistakes became humiliating. There was no space or second chance for improvement... but critics. So, I guess I am putting a full stop and learn to say NO (which I always fail to do so)
It's "early Christmas gift"
I always thought that there will be no miracle happen from HW, there goes my 1st surprise from him. It was totally an unexpected gift coz we had few communication breakdown earlier. I don't know how to share tis piece of love with the rest coz its bout me and him only... no one else would understand and feel it! Hmmmmm and I really do look forward for a good christmas!
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Mr & Mrs Lau's Wedding
Finally it has all come to an end.... my task is done and I am free! Yeah, D & C's wedding! It took few months in process to think and figure out the whole gimmick, I would it is not easy when I came out the idea and getting other people to do it. The overall rating for the nite event would be 75% success only. I am proud to say that it was a good one but of course I can't ignore those weaknesses behind. Some people criticized and some complimented us (me and sean). Well, the mistake we did was the very details of the CHINESE PANTANG stuffs! But I have to say that I can't favor everyone there, most important is our groom and bride are fine with the outcome. One example is the gimmick we did and I used a blue scarf (matches my navy blue cheongsam)and ppl said that the colour is or funeral. So, it was a lesson to learn. lol! well, now I noted the weaknesses and I will improve from there. I starting to like this job! hopefully more to come.... lol!! I need to thank my partner in crime sean to make this wedding reception a success also.
You know what, I do realized that men always will be more outstanding than women in emcee career.... and my target is to be one of the women to success in this path. :P
Finally it has all come to an end.... my task is done and I am free! Yeah, D & C's wedding! It took few months in process to think and figure out the whole gimmick, I would it is not easy when I came out the idea and getting other people to do it. The overall rating for the nite event would be 75% success only. I am proud to say that it was a good one but of course I can't ignore those weaknesses behind. Some people criticized and some complimented us (me and sean). Well, the mistake we did was the very details of the CHINESE PANTANG stuffs! But I have to say that I can't favor everyone there, most important is our groom and bride are fine with the outcome. One example is the gimmick we did and I used a blue scarf (matches my navy blue cheongsam)and ppl said that the colour is or funeral. So, it was a lesson to learn. lol! well, now I noted the weaknesses and I will improve from there. I starting to like this job! hopefully more to come.... lol!! I need to thank my partner in crime sean to make this wedding reception a success also.
You know what, I do realized that men always will be more outstanding than women in emcee career.... and my target is to be one of the women to success in this path. :P
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
It has been few weeks since the robbery incident, honestly I can't lie that I am still traumatized with the incident. Some frens asked how is he so dumb to show where he actually stays... come to think about it, I guess I can't even promise that I wont do the same thing like him. No one to blame but things are just so unlucky... and what surprised me now is his brother (the victim) is shifting himself to stay at hostel. He did not inform my family member at all, I found out when I saw a car parked at my house. I asked him if that is his fren and he opened the door and said... yeah, coz I am shifting out. I felt sad... coz I feel it is more because of this incident and his brother forced him to stay hostel. He told us that his brother did proposed he want to move out and his brother could stay, but at last the younger brother decided to move out. Hmmmm... I really pity for this guy. He is a quiet and obedient guy. Very straight forward and honest... u ask him few times ... he will tell everything... sigh! wish him all the best...
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