No more smiles
Ever since the robbery, I never sleep well, eat well and really smile. I always look tension n worried. Every night before I sleep I will do repeated action until I feel ok. I know this is not good and this is not healthy but I can't help it. My parents seems ok, because they don't get to hear many stories like I did. Like my mom, she still ride a bike to many places and this week she got to take care of her bosses' house!! She will never understand how dangerous it is and her life is NOT INSURED if anything happen!!! I advise, I told she never listen. She keeps thinkin of no problem! She never know how crazy an idiot thief could be when they r on drugs! Everything is in my head.... No one to share my worries!
My dad has got listening problem.... so he will not be sensitive with surroundings.and for that I do worry bout him too! Worries he might forget to lock the door, forget to switch off electricity....I don't know how long I could bear such worries. I thought my sister would at least come home and visit my parents. Just bcoz the heels is not at home, she chose not to come back. She never know that mom was blessed by GOD that she is still alive... coz without God's protection I guess she would have no choice to come back either visiting my mom at hospital or unwanted scene....
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Saturday, September 26, 2009
It has been more than a week since the robbery case, and I am still in worries. Worried doors are not lock, worrying all sorts of unpredictable misfortune agenda! I am so tired but I can't let go this feelings coz it's haunting me without fail... every night!It really kills me.... Imagine I am a bridesmaid for A's wedding and I have one 5cents acne on my face! It's so awful.... everytime when there is any big event, my face will grow acne!sigh~ I don't feel good.... everything! anything....
But then, after staying in A's house for a nite, I feel much better, in fact, they did not lock any doors yet everyone sleep soundly including me (except that the bed is too small for 2 gurls) I've seen many things in a day and I tell myself, only GOD can take my life... not these robbers or any inhumanity criminals. I read in Bible, GOD taught ppl to forgive... and I am learning not to remember it.... hopefully time really helps me to lessen this feelings
But then, after staying in A's house for a nite, I feel much better, in fact, they did not lock any doors yet everyone sleep soundly including me (except that the bed is too small for 2 gurls) I've seen many things in a day and I tell myself, only GOD can take my life... not these robbers or any inhumanity criminals. I read in Bible, GOD taught ppl to forgive... and I am learning not to remember it.... hopefully time really helps me to lessen this feelings
Monday, September 21, 2009
I am alone in my room... again my worries n fear haunting me! It only when it comes to night...and everytime at this kind of moments, I will ask myself...where are those people I always treated them like my buddy! I have no boundaries to help out my frens but when I needed someone the most.... ppl would set their boundaries.... I feel upset that no one is here with me when I need someone to accompany me and to walk through my darkest time.... I am really torn!
Saturday, September 19, 2009
Now I know.....
I never rejected to anyone help/needs whom I define as "FRIENDS / BUDDY". But it seems that diff people may have diff type of sharing of love. I've not even overcome my trauma and now I am always alone in room! I wanted to share with my frens or at least they r here for me, but no one cares. Some think I will get over it and it's just small small peanuts. Well, not until the needle poke onto ur own skin...the pain is painless! So, they dun prioritize my feelings. I mean, what r frens for? To be sincerely there when he/she needed a fren the most rite! Apparently, no one is with me now...I am alone. Everyone suggest me to have frens for few days to overcome this... but no one is willing to be with me and to overcome my horrible experience!!! And some worried that they might ask for trouble coz dunno the robbers will come back again o not....
I am always there for any of my frens when they needed a fren... but it seems that there is no thing such as kind hearted! I guess is time for me to redefine my terms of calling ppl FRIENDS!
I never rejected to anyone help/needs whom I define as "FRIENDS / BUDDY". But it seems that diff people may have diff type of sharing of love. I've not even overcome my trauma and now I am always alone in room! I wanted to share with my frens or at least they r here for me, but no one cares. Some think I will get over it and it's just small small peanuts. Well, not until the needle poke onto ur own skin...the pain is painless! So, they dun prioritize my feelings. I mean, what r frens for? To be sincerely there when he/she needed a fren the most rite! Apparently, no one is with me now...I am alone. Everyone suggest me to have frens for few days to overcome this... but no one is willing to be with me and to overcome my horrible experience!!! And some worried that they might ask for trouble coz dunno the robbers will come back again o not....
I am always there for any of my frens when they needed a fren... but it seems that there is no thing such as kind hearted! I guess is time for me to redefine my terms of calling ppl FRIENDS!
Hey everyone,
This is going to a the worst experience I've ever had this in my life. It started like this....
Ah chi (a guy who rented my room) went to Kepong for a drink with frens at station 1 (1230AM). But his frens din turn up on time, so he went to 7-Elevan (quite a distance) to buy reload card. So the moment he stepped into his car, 2 indian guys came forward and block his door and pointed him with a knife! He was told to give all his belongings....he refused. At the same time, his frens called to inform he arrived, so pressed 'answer' and then he shouted for help and that is when the indians got pissed. They dragged Ah chi to backseat (along 2 indians) and suddenly came up another indian as driver. So total were 4 in car. Ah chi was covered with helmet and his head was pushed down.He can't see anything... while his head was down, he was asked whether he has got money in bank and he replied NO. So, the suspects asked where he lived. He was beaten until he got no choice to tell he lived in OLD TOWN (MY HOUSE!!!!). While they were rounding for 3hours before they came to my house, and in between they actually picked up another 2fellas that took drug in the car. So total now is 5indians and ah chi!
At first, they were reluctant to go in coz there were number of cars in my house. They rounded my house few times and checked who are our family members! Ah chi, was in panicked and he told that the house seperated to 2 floors and as for my floor.... it is only my dad, the only man around with his bro..the rest are females! Now, they know who are there in my house, 4men went into the house and 1in car to take care ah chi! The moment ( my hearts starts to shiver again now...) they came up, they actually tried to open our doors but all locked. Finally he manage to open the last room where ah chi and his bro stays. He pointed the parang at his bro ( AH HONG) and asked him to take off his golds while the rest ransacked his room ( they took PC, PSP, money, ATM,IC)then blindfolded him.
After that, Ah hong heard they walked out... so he thought that they are leaving. A while later, they walked in and unfold his eyes and TOLD HIM TO GO NEXT ROOM TO KNOCK THEIR DOORS!!!!! So Ah hong was so scared but no choice coz the parang was on his neck! Ah hong, went to the door (christine's room and she was not asleep yet) and knocked slowly... so she find it strange and quickly call me, I told her I don't know also. I went to the door, try to listen what sound and even look down through the door hole... I saw shadows only. At that time, my doggie was already alert... he barked!
What pissed me was my mom was so smart that she open her door when she heard some noises!!!!! and when she found there were strangers, she quickly slam the door and lock it!!! During that time, one of the indian did try to hold the door with his parangs BUT failed!! my mom shouted to me asked me not to open the door, and my dad jumped up and shouted for help at the balcony!!! and i also shouted for help.... so dragged ah hong down...ran out the door and then threw him aside!!! they drove off the vios and ah chi was still inside!after 1/2 an hour..they called to ask for ATM pin number. Ah hong told them that he don't have any money in that account. so they instructed him to bank in!!! I did called the police..but they took 20min to arrive coz they were having their SAHUR before fasting!!! The inspector took more than 1/2hour to reach!!! Things and investigation was so bloody slow!!! Police told us to hold their time... while they try to detect...and the end they couldn't help much! coz.... ah hong came up the idea to use FriendFrinder (his ex used to check him with that)..we told the police and they dun even know what the heck is FRIEND FINDER!and asked us how we manage to find it! Then around 7am, we can't wait and we bank in the money... RM1300 coz v negotiated it. They let ah chi go... they left him at the mortuary at jln sg besi... we walked to a man and asked for location details... the man told him and he walked out and took a cab back to his restaurant (he's a chef) and woke up his colleagues that stayed in the hostel...
So, my whole day just running around from JPN, hospital and police station!Ah Chi n Ah Hong can't speak english or little bit of malay... So, I have to be their translator 24/7! Until now...I am still so emo... I dunno how to overcome it! So every time I remember Ah chi told them that our family only few of us and only 1 man, I worried they would come again........
This is going to a the worst experience I've ever had this in my life. It started like this....
Ah chi (a guy who rented my room) went to Kepong for a drink with frens at station 1 (1230AM). But his frens din turn up on time, so he went to 7-Elevan (quite a distance) to buy reload card. So the moment he stepped into his car, 2 indian guys came forward and block his door and pointed him with a knife! He was told to give all his belongings....he refused. At the same time, his frens called to inform he arrived, so pressed 'answer' and then he shouted for help and that is when the indians got pissed. They dragged Ah chi to backseat (along 2 indians) and suddenly came up another indian as driver. So total were 4 in car. Ah chi was covered with helmet and his head was pushed down.He can't see anything... while his head was down, he was asked whether he has got money in bank and he replied NO. So, the suspects asked where he lived. He was beaten until he got no choice to tell he lived in OLD TOWN (MY HOUSE!!!!). While they were rounding for 3hours before they came to my house, and in between they actually picked up another 2fellas that took drug in the car. So total now is 5indians and ah chi!
At first, they were reluctant to go in coz there were number of cars in my house. They rounded my house few times and checked who are our family members! Ah chi, was in panicked and he told that the house seperated to 2 floors and as for my floor.... it is only my dad, the only man around with his bro..the rest are females! Now, they know who are there in my house, 4men went into the house and 1in car to take care ah chi! The moment ( my hearts starts to shiver again now...) they came up, they actually tried to open our doors but all locked. Finally he manage to open the last room where ah chi and his bro stays. He pointed the parang at his bro ( AH HONG) and asked him to take off his golds while the rest ransacked his room ( they took PC, PSP, money, ATM,IC)then blindfolded him.
After that, Ah hong heard they walked out... so he thought that they are leaving. A while later, they walked in and unfold his eyes and TOLD HIM TO GO NEXT ROOM TO KNOCK THEIR DOORS!!!!! So Ah hong was so scared but no choice coz the parang was on his neck! Ah hong, went to the door (christine's room and she was not asleep yet) and knocked slowly... so she find it strange and quickly call me, I told her I don't know also. I went to the door, try to listen what sound and even look down through the door hole... I saw shadows only. At that time, my doggie was already alert... he barked!
What pissed me was my mom was so smart that she open her door when she heard some noises!!!!! and when she found there were strangers, she quickly slam the door and lock it!!! During that time, one of the indian did try to hold the door with his parangs BUT failed!! my mom shouted to me asked me not to open the door, and my dad jumped up and shouted for help at the balcony!!! and i also shouted for help.... so dragged ah hong down...ran out the door and then threw him aside!!! they drove off the vios and ah chi was still inside!after 1/2 an hour..they called to ask for ATM pin number. Ah hong told them that he don't have any money in that account. so they instructed him to bank in!!! I did called the police..but they took 20min to arrive coz they were having their SAHUR before fasting!!! The inspector took more than 1/2hour to reach!!! Things and investigation was so bloody slow!!! Police told us to hold their time... while they try to detect...and the end they couldn't help much! coz.... ah hong came up the idea to use FriendFrinder (his ex used to check him with that)..we told the police and they dun even know what the heck is FRIEND FINDER!and asked us how we manage to find it! Then around 7am, we can't wait and we bank in the money... RM1300 coz v negotiated it. They let ah chi go... they left him at the mortuary at jln sg besi... we walked to a man and asked for location details... the man told him and he walked out and took a cab back to his restaurant (he's a chef) and woke up his colleagues that stayed in the hostel...
So, my whole day just running around from JPN, hospital and police station!Ah Chi n Ah Hong can't speak english or little bit of malay... So, I have to be their translator 24/7! Until now...I am still so emo... I dunno how to overcome it! So every time I remember Ah chi told them that our family only few of us and only 1 man, I worried they would come again........
Monday, September 14, 2009
Started 1st day.... in different industry.... so far everything looks good except that I walk more and do more stuffs. colleagues are great, she taught me alot of stuffs although she is only 3months old in that workplace. She brought me to whole building and told me every single procedures and we had lunch together. Lady boss make sure I am taken care of while familiarizing myself to the new environment!! At least I know where I am... what I will be expecting to do... surroundings environment is a bit old but the people are friendly... they won't wait for you to ask but they will approach and say "if you need anything you can ask me.... don't worry bout disturbing although my table a bit messed up" Well, I felt happy and blessed that ppl ere are not self-centered! I am blessed that I have spacious working table too.. well, they r in middle relocating every dept so for time being... me n J r chucked into another level without any supervisory! Owh... we use fingerprints to clock in & out... cool!
well... let's see what's tomorrow... As expected, my responsibility are quite big, cases of complaints are all taken care in a very professional way and I am expected to be tip top for the organization! Workloads .... challenging!!!
well... let's see what's tomorrow... As expected, my responsibility are quite big, cases of complaints are all taken care in a very professional way and I am expected to be tip top for the organization! Workloads .... challenging!!!
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