Hie to my own wall.... I've not been updating any news bout myself. I was busy with the weddings and my new job. Some r great and some isn't that fun. New job so far so good, and I have tough time to cope everything at once since I was malfunction for a year.... so, I need to add oil to pick up myself n be on par in the industry I am working now.

October was a disastrous month,however it actually can be prevented if I want to, but I chose to proceed. Many times, even when I was in a relationship... ppl commented I am too nice/kind to others and these ppl tend to take me for granted and at the end there is no appreciation. What took me to write this out here is because during the month of Oct, many incident happened and at the end of the day, I asked myself... do I feel happy? the answer, NO! WHY... coz I was not appreciated. I don't expect anything in return but at least....at least, put some effort to show some appreciation. It is not about the success or failure of the outcome but it is more of effort that counts! Again, frens asked "after all u have done and sacrificed, do they sincerely thank u and appreciate u?" I kept quiet for a while coz I don't know the answer too... honestly, I don't feel it. My kindness became gossips, and the mistakes became humiliating. There was no space or second chance for improvement... but critics. So, I guess I am putting a full stop and learn to say NO (which I always fail to do so)


It's "early Christmas gift"
I always thought that there will be no miracle happen from HW, there goes my 1st surprise from him. It was totally an unexpected gift coz we had few communication breakdown earlier. I don't know how to share tis piece of love with the rest coz its bout me and him only... no one else would understand and feel it! Hmmmmm and I really do look forward for a good christmas!