Good Gurl

Have been good gurl for weeks. I know I can't go on with this lifestyle drinking, happy'ing... I mean I do njoy when I don't have to think about tomorrow and of course time pass faster... however, de lifestyle JC is moving is too ridiculous for me to catch up. Sometimes I even told her to mellow herself. I am concerned, honestly, bout her... you may say that I am conservative or whatever, but I just don't want them to suffer from sickness in future or scaring someone off... I wont deny that I did enjoy myself with them. They make me relieve my pains and allow me to see something different in life. I have more more more n more frens also.

Almost There

I went yum cha with JY, and on my way back bout 2.30am I have a sense that I need to be super duper extra careful or else something bad will happen it to me, and yes, my prediction was correct. While I was driving back on the main rain, I saw a bike at the side of the road (indian guy) and he saw I was alone. Then he started his bike... that was the time I keep looking at my back mirror. Immediately I off my headlights n turn to my house, park my car switch off the car. Then I stay in my car for few minutes just to ensure it's safe to get down... n then... I saw the bike with another fella (his fren, i guess) turning at the junction before my house and I could see they were looking around. I was a bit worried. The moment I saw them turning that junction I quickly get down from car (have my house key in hand ady) and rush into my house. Prob I am just paranoid, I don't know... mayb they live somewhere at that road... but no matter how, I think I should be careful since I am out late nite...


Double trip & extra broke
Coming May and July... I'll be going to same country but different city. Bangkok, HERE I COME.... with empty pocket!!!well...well....well... I am looking forward for my May trip coz my passport is expiring very soon (Dec). If I don't travel by now.. bye bye to my passport and wasted my RM500 for it. Yeah, stupid citizenship causes me so much trouble... even in applying passport. This is gonna be a budget trip coz I seriously do not have $ to go andspend like a queen there. But July is an unexpected trip, coz this is sponsored by my mom. I know... she wants me to go so I could keep an eye on my sis!! It's ok... I can have another trip to Khaosan! I guess by that time I only have less than 1k to spend. My Bkk trip budget is 1k only but sadly some of my frens still putting themselves on a priority list- it's not selfish just bout lifestyle matter. I expected a budget backpack style of trip but in the end, it became a normal travelling... it's ok...once in a life time!

Bringing myself on track

I get confirmed last 2week but I don't feel anything positive at all. In fact, I am opening my option to do what hope and wish to do. Even though I have suggested some of the possible changes to improve my job responsibility, however, I could forsee it is more like a hell burden than an opportunity. He is a nice fren(in person)but I can't give compliment over his leadership. I've been guided and lead by many excellent superior/leaders and I guess I am capable to judge him in this case.Well, let's not go too deep about it, coz I guess he should have the self conscious and I am not in the position to tell anyone off. But, I do realized that if I continue to hide under my shell, I will not go that far and I may not reach my dream any time soon. It's really frustrating to have all this shits around me, what to do, GOD thinks I am superwoman.

My dream job: air stewardess/ model
my secondary permanent job: wedding planner/ bridal house/
current situation: non of the above!

See, to reach my secondary dream job I need to spark my career with fruitful experience and exposure. networking is a must. But in my position and enviroment I am nowhere near or close to my position given. I know I can't compare JB(in MNC) which falls the same batch(joined later than me) and same work field with me. But I truly envy on his path of success.... at least he is working on something and something that is seriously meeting ppl and not too conservative type. It's not just about government but community. I'm speechless for myself at the moment....