When the business is not MY BUSINESS

I wish the business I am talking here really makes money, but really not. This don't make money but using a lot of my efforts. At first, I really don't mind as long J finds her happiness and could have better livings. Days by days I see her miserable look... very upset and clueless with her living and this is when I really can't bare the worries as her frens. It doesn't mean that if she doesn't want to tell me anymore I will forget, NO, it is a frenship bonding and the worries comes naturally from heart. At this point, I really want to ask her "do you know what are you doing and who are you still?" but I know I should not interfear plus I know the other half. I supported at first but at certain things, I decided it's not worth coz I could see what's more further than this. I pray.....

When life is like catching butterflies
As same, my life has no changes and things are the same. I did not have the 2 offer and still stuck wit my current position. Looking at the current market crisis, I hold back. My life is just like catching butterflies- hopefully I could catch a rare butterfly one day!

Love life - sucks! At this point, I can't have a sense of loving but just working. and working is not working anywhere also. so, it's really bullshit!

Health Life - Got food poisoned and lied on bed for 3 consecutive days. It was terrible, especially the neausea. I never want it to happen again. Honestly, some people may think, how come a person who is not from wealthy family but stomach acts like one. Seriously, ask GOD! I may be a queen/princess for my past life! You never know....

Men life - after couple of months of expanding my freedom, men are realistic. Really reaslistic. What I am saying here are those wealthy and will only find for peacock faces and NOT chicken faces also. and those peacock...MY GOD, really think they r peacock and could fly! they never know one day... their feather will drop and old... and these men will still search for new ones. And formy type of low-mid range quality... to them, their treats to me are like " why are you still on earth, OR please NEVER, NEVER, NEVER... get close to ME!" This comes worst when the men thinks he is good looking, and as usual the friendly ELLICE approaches (AS FRENS) they think thousand of stupid things.... Sorry, I don't have such thick face to serve myself on a plate and for your pleasure!!