It's been a while that I know I've neglected my page here. I've been doing a lot of thinking even through my CNY. I was not having a relaxing one but more or less this CNY holiday makes a good rest.

The Internet Connectivity
Yeah, my hobby is back again with more good stories to share here. I've met few so-called bachelor themselves, some are real nice but some are horny. My posted picture on site were not the good one but yet I still receive msg from guy who willing to share their scope of frenship. I've met a guy who loves jazz, oldies and sentimental musics. Our 1st date was funny, we went for a hair cut together. We clicked like friends but v don't call each other just virtually clicked then. I've also met someone who are much more older- say 38? He's matured, not talkative, and very chinese man but not conservative. Last guy I met, a guy with all tattoo on his body- he's a chef and he's taken! I would say that this guy could flirt and trying to get a companion. Glad I was not the chosen one!

Believe should be "I" - in myself
I used to trust people rather than my parents. Forgive me, I lost my real parents very long ago and not to blame or to say that my foster parents are bad. It's just happen that they always query every single thing I do and will nag all the way long. I know...I know... for my own good but all I need its just a lil trust from them. Maybe I've depended myself all this while - the people I know- the knowledge I had - independence & capability ( I can't fully admit this cause they gave me what I am to be today). Hence, they took me . Mayb not for any granted but hoping that I could be ME. My parents are not educated and for this it causes some lack of knowledge in my life experience. One here, women beauty consider to be everything especially when I am searching man for certain standard. But as for now, I can't go far or to reach my dream because of my incapability to do so. I am not angry with anyone and I always try n try to seek ways that I could get what I want which is still not visible yet. I've been fooled and cheated or rejected because of my skin imperfection. I blame myself for not having such knowledge and when I see my beautiful friends being chased by "quality" man, I envy them. I asked, if i weren't having such problem, then this scene will also happen to me, right?" True by said " no one is perfect but I could improve myself to be perfect" Hopefully one day, one....day.... God will hear me and grant me this wish.

CNY Mood
Honestly, this year mood is close to ZERO. I don't have that anxious feeling to wait for the upcoming CNY. I applied a whole week of holiday cause I am going to S'pore. It seems like I am more happy to travel to s'pore than celebrating CNY. Somehow, it took few seconds of my time that all my dept faces came knocking in my mind. Hell yeah... that sucks! No offend, its just that... it's holiday man!!! No work issue here!!! When these faces gave a glimpse, my mood sinked! I guess, ppl know me they know why.

Hidden secret revealed!
I knw this guy through my cousin and we met in 2008 in a club. We party wild for all nite long and we became friends. Later that he went after me but I don't see him as for my future. I have to admit that I do have some knowledge on man ( meeting too many jerks in life) and he is a "kind" too. As usual he called and he chat and flirt. One reason I have to admit that he's my cousin's friend and when that guy is a typical person, I need to pull back some trust from him and my instinct were true. He flirt with me while flirting with others, he treated me like a high school girl and today..... the hot news revealed. It was so happen that I was having lunch with my cousin and then he accidently shared that this fella is having another so-called affair. He always ended up heating friendship a for FEMALE. Sad to say, this girl is also a scandal & I shouldn't be knowing all this but too bad... too late! Of course, I need to pretend dumb as usual to see how far he would fool me! Glad that I've never given a chance to consider bout him....