Beginning of 2009

2009
a year where you step ahead without looking back
a year where things hopefully could be better
a hope of last year's bad door keep don't keep knocking in mind
a pray for transformation...
wish to obtain what was orally said but not done...
and... that is why GOD still spare me a chance of living here!

A short trip of 2008

In the year 2005, I was lost and I pray n pray that I could be a student again,
then someone told me, I must always believe in what I wan to do, and believe that I could do it. That piece of paper change my life. two-n-half year mediated and conscious of what wasted behind. Love is no more what I have crazily chased after, friends are countless but true friends are countable and it's only happen to be single digit. Family became warm in heart though there are times I felt like a stranger but I was supported along my way and now I clearly do care what I call it "future".

Somehow, life could never be perfect like fairy tale stories. In this year, I also live with a group of bachelors who I clearly see different characters and whether they are sincere or not. I also met someone that I do care and hope he could see me for his future but stairs are too high for me to climb and sit the same level with him. On the other hand, someone who appears in my life... I can't put much word but only "wait". Time is just too slow.....I wish I could fast forward everything in life and pause when I am tired. There are also time where some uncivilized man came into my life. Never a thief admit he is bad, same goes to playboy, player & married man!

As journey moved towards year end, that is when I had my true life.... really tired, really difficult, really giving up.... at that point, I wish I could stay away from anyone else to take some fresh air but again financial problem is what i encountered all the time. Until now, I can't see any good turnover. That is why I am glad that 2008 is finally over! A was a bad year and hopefully I see some shinning stars in 2009.

On my eve nite, I went to church... for thanks giving nite. The place was good and as I followed along the music, I recall what I have lost all these while.... I don't know if I am still in father's arm or HE has punished me. No matter what, I shall seek for my soul and to believe that Father Lord is always by my side to shelter me when dark clouds and thunderstorm with rain hit on me.... Thanks Kat!