I have not been blogging for quite some time as work are getting meaningless and my life is so grey.

Life
CNY is over, yes I know! and... I am gaining weight. My body structure doesn't allow me to have little flesh else I look chubby! Well, I am now. I joined my buddy,JC, everywhere she goes, I find it is a good thing in life as I could strip off all shitty things in work. (Again, I stress this is MY BLOG!) I club and drink n sing n ....n... smoke? not often, just a stick when I am freezing at that place alone but I am out there almost every nite. Even my dad feedback on my late nite outings now. Well, put it this way, I am stressed of my life and with some ppl out there.... I can't be sitting at home n watch TV all the time. I think I have been obedient quite a long time n now I need some time for myself.

Pro Bono
My heart is always open for any charity work as long I could contribute to the needy. Recently I am up to a few charity work again but I feel I am not doing my part properly. I am quite irresponsible, I know, it's really very bad. As I said to some of my frens, I am mentally breaking down now. I need a break. Anything you ask me I will think "I dunno". Please don't ask me how come this could happen " I REALLY DON"T KNOW!"

Career
Lost! I don't even know what is my position and standing status now. All I know I am quite useless and working like a clerk. Agree or disagree, a communication people that doesn't have any opportunity to in-touch with the outer world, all I do is to LEARN how to communicate with the secretary and my computer (like it is an expectation of work!)
I clear my administrative work and ensuring that bloody intranet work which I have no freaking idea how to start when things were NOT taught at the VERY BEGINNING! I lost my capability bcoz "they" cut my capbility and strength. Honestly, till now I am demotivated! I shall move on... but quite dilemma at this point! I pray...pray very hard to figure it out...

Valentine
Nah... it's not my festive. I guess I'll just stay at home or go party. No expectations coz I can't think of it now. If it happen then it's a gift!